Happy days are over...

Classes has begun and so I'm back again in university's life. First of all I have to apologize for not getting in touch with you all. Here you will get the answer... You may wonder why I started to write in english and also this will be clarified...
As some of you already know I am taking a course in advanced biochemistry. Courses in Sweden are offered thanks to Bologna as modules, so my course is really diversified and counts 15 credit points (in comparision: a whole semester counts 30 ECTS). Such huge courses contain both theoretical and practical education. As I am always blessed I got the course that runs every week from 8 in the morning 'til 5 at night (right: here in Sweden 5 is already night!). But I won't complain about this - I am used to this anyway (even though the other exchange students all have like two days a week...). The course is given in english since 5-10 of the 30 students (in the beginning) are from abroad and not all can speak swedish. However, the matter is really not basic and sometimes hard to understand because it requires often lots of previous knowledge. Our prof who by the way gave us her mobile number in the first lecture scared us right away the first day. "I promise that you won't remain as many you are... course will be really tough... you will fail if you don't work everyday... you should quit this course if you don't have the power to focus right now on it" a.s.o. The next point is that we shall work individually, individual projects, individually in the labs, individually in the classes, everything individually... Of course everything shall be found out independently even though some of us (like me) never have been in a biochemistry lab before. Okay so far. So I am sitting now every day in the evening until late in the night and trying to find out what to do the next day because there is no other way to survive in the labs. This is obviously the reason why I broke up the contact to humanity. I already thought about quitting this course but actually it is really interesting what we do and additionally my damn ambition prevents me from giving up. Just know we are cloning, right read, CLONING! To destroy your fantasy - no humans, no sheep, no mice... just hacking into bacteria, inserting foreign gene material and cloning that. My biggest problem just now and the reason why you may read everything in this wonderful language is that we have to give a lecture, everybody of us, own project, understood, time: 40 minutes. And that shocked me really, just now where my language knowledge became more and more rudimentary and I really don't manage it to say anything without stuttering and stammering... Have I already mentioned that I got my lecture in two weeks? Nervousbreakdown, liksom... And I have never given a lecture in another language... fuck... and I haven't even found time to get started with this...not to mention books and material... aaaaaaaaaaaaaah!